dammmmmmmmn

here i was so sure that nothing would change….a friend is a friend. and suddenly that is all in question.
we have a brunch date with the new couple on Sunday, and so when K called to invite us, we talked a little….she thanked me for being gentle with D when she told me about them. My response was pretty much “what did you expect me to do”. and then in a joking manner, i said something about needing to give D some crap about worrying about it. K warned me to go gentle because D is in a very vulnerable place. and of course i said, well sure that was rather obvious, this level of vulnerability is new for D.
I got off the phone and realized i was ANGRY. How dare K, who has only known D for a short time, but been intimate with her, tell me to be careful of her feelings…as if I wouldn’t be. Yes, it was sweet that she was protective of her new lady love. But don’t forget that she is my friend and has been for a long time.

So now here i sit….wondering if i have to be someone different now, with one of the few people in the world I am comfortable being anywhere near vulnerable.

Going back to the old walking on eggs everywhere i walk.

~ by Cris on April 29, 2009.